I constanlty tell myself that I will start writing out the details of my life to keep this blog interesting but it doesn´t seem to happen. I think that part of my process of keeping sane in training was to spend time typing up emails to my family and friends on my laptop in my room. So maybe it´s a good thing that I almost don´t have time for that anymore. I feel like there is always something I should be doing, even if it´s just sitting in the room, observing the craziness of my new family and friends interacting. Which is what I always feel like I´m doing. Just observing. And while I´m completely happy to just be observing for now, I wonder if there will come a time when I am a more active participant in my own life. That definitely sounded more dramatic than I intended but what I mean is that even though I have found friends and am always busy, I´m not really doing anything other than following around these friends and listening to them talk. And sure, I join in on the conversations if I have something to add or if I am asked a question, but most of the time I´m just desperately trying to keep up and understand most of what they are talking about. I´m really happy doing that. It makes me feel involved and like I am finding my place here. But I just wonder when I will find my place and what it will be. It´s unsettling when I think about it so I guess it´s lucky that I don´t really think about it much.